SO CALLED FRIEND......

So called friend.....hmmmm
I have to sit back and relax and think about this one
Do friends talk...kiss...make love
Better yet....Just Fuck
Do they listen to you
Cherish you,
Respect you,
Care for you,
Do they love you???
Will they be there for you when you hear bad news
Or wait with you for your results
Let you cry
Ruin your make up
Mascara running down you're face
Cover up on their shirt
Tell you it will be ok
Or take advantage because you're down
Will your friendship be in the open
Or when others aren't around
Will you be caught off guard knowing upfront that you're not number one
But thought you were number two
Only to find out you're just one of the many random few
Coupled up by a lil unprotected action
Pregnancy is the least of our worries
Can we say STD's, HIV, AIDS
I have my boys to live for
How in this day and age could I be so careless
Haven't I been down this road
Been here before
I'm older, smarter, wiser
Thank the lord for my protection and keeping me safe from all harm and danger
But don't friends tell you when you're wrong and you made an idiotic mistake


So called friend....
I'm going through this amazing rollercoaster
Contradicting feelings
A raging sea of can this be
What???
Asking myself questions
Why??? Why??? Why???
Friendship is more than saying just so
Stand by it,
Live by it,
Be about it
Saying one,
Meaning another
Could it be that I was just wrong
I'm a woman,
I can admit that
Can you???
Could it be that I'm just broken hearted
Naw....that ain't it
I must laugh about it.....hahaha


I'm just ranting and raving
But don't be sadly mistaken
This is not the blame game
But the realization
That things will remain
Blah...Blah...Blah...
The same, same, same


Waking upto the sounds of her heels as she left
Click...Click...Click...
Goodbye babe...what a wonderful night
For who I say???
Number 1
Number 2
Number 4...5...6...
As I lay there I wonder this...
But why wonder...
It is what it is
In the end this may all mean nothing
Nothing fake
Just a mistake


So called friend....