"Good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere" - Mae West

Okay, I'm so fucking jaded on so many levels. I can't grasp what the hell is going on with me right now. I'm so caught up with what someone else is doing that I can barely stay as focused as I need to be. I'm infatuated with a friend of mine and I can't shake the feelings. It's crazy! Oh, well...

It's funny what you'll put up with and how much you'll accept when in a semi-pseudo relationship...I call it relation-shit, cause that's all I put up with...SHIT! Anyway, it hurts like hell when the reality of the shit seeps in and blows your fantasy out of the damn water. What I thought it was what I wanted...I'm quick to understand it wasn't what I needed. AND GOD...that sucks. Blindness doesn't suit me well.

My birthday was a lot of fun! Bullshit only entered after the club ended and we were outside. I'm over it though and working on making sure others are over it too! Gotta love a little dramatics every now and again!

I'm a mother of 6. I love to have fun with my friends. I love to have sex with my semi-pseudo, not really, could be if he stopped showing out man. I love to eat crab. I love to travel. I love to shop. I love to scrapbook. AND I loooooooove MAKING THAT MONEY! Is it possible to work for friends and everything remain copasetic? I think so, but who am I to make that determination. I'm not one to cause rifts in relationships, but dammit...it's about that money! I get in where I fit in and make moves towards the end result which is dough, dough, dough! DUH!!

*SIGH* How come life can't be easy? Hell I guess if it was...it'd be called something else! In the interim, I'm going to ride this bitch till the wheels fall off and see what culminates. Hopefully I'll still have a semi-pseudo, if he quits tripping on his own ego and f-cking with other b-tches, envy and jealousy raging out of control, can't see past the little head, could be man when it's all over with. We shall see!

I also enjoy listening to music...all types, all genre's, but lately I've been on that heavy R&B, take me back to the 90's kick. I'm in love with an asshole right now, but that too shall pass! HA! Well, back to doing my homework which is all due December 15. Pray for me!